Baffled.

Honestly, I don't know how this is possible...

But EVERYTIME, and I mean EVERYTIME that I try to convince myself to get over Luke, and just let it be,
and perhaps not persue this - whatever it is...

He contacts me.

ALWAYS.

How is this possible? How does he know?!

It never fails! I'm completely dumbfounded by this whole thing.

Everytime single time I tell myself, "eh maybe this won't work out, maybe I should just get over it and accept it for what it was, and forget about it..."

He will either leave me a message, email or call me.

I don't know if it's some kind of voodoo trick or what!?

But I'm totally bugging out all morning.

Last night I was kind of bummed and feeling lonely, but of course I thought about him, and was trying to sway myself into not thinking about him, which is well counterproductive as well know. So all night I'm tossing and turning thinking these things to myself:

"Don't think about him, let it go. It probably won't work out. It's too complicated. You don't know what he's up to over there. You might as well just accept it for what it was worth, and be glad you met someone awesome for once. Yes, it sucks that he's so far away, but maybe he's far for a reason. Maybe it's not supposed be..."

Then of course he contacts me. He leaves a message on my voicemail - Saying he was feeling sentimental and had to call me that he was thinking about me, and he misses me.

Sigh.

How can I feel this way about someone I know so little about?!?
And vice versa.

How!?!

I think about him a lot. I miss him. I just want to throw my arms around him and kiss him.
I haven't had this feeling in a very long time, if I've even ever had this feeling before.
I loved Al, but this is just different. I feel differently for Luke. Different in a wonderfully fantasticals kind of way!

Ok, that was gay.

I.Beezy out.