So...

I told my mom about Luke.

She was kind of excited to hear about him. I kind of hesitated, naturally.
You don't want to rush, well I never want to rush to tell my folks about someone I just met, let alone, who I can't even bring to meet my folks...

It took me almost 2 yrs before my folks met Al.
So you can imagine. They never knew any of the other guys I've dated.
They met one by accident. Steve (what a whiney little bitch he was) lol...

Anyways, so I was telling mom about him. And even showed a picture. She thinks he's really really really goodlooking (cue in Zoolander voice) haha
Seriously though, she thought he was goodlooking, and I was like bragging about him, and how smart he is...yadda yadda. She was happy he's educated LOL and can drive. Sadly, this is the same things I was excited over! haha

I get so excited when talking about him. You can see my face light up. It's amazing how much of an effect someone can have on you.

My mom's noticed my moods. She knows I'm bummed about Cali and not moving just yet...the whole set back is not getting a job yet, it's killing me. I just want a job already so I can be on my merry little way to starting a new life.

I've never lived alone, I've never lived out of state. it's going to be exciting. New things - new place, new job, newer car, new love, new people, new life.

I'm totally going to miss everyone here! I really wish I could scoop everyone up and bring them with me...I don't know how I am going to manage without my core group.

Geeves and Clef are my best friends. I'm going to miss them terribly.
That is the only thing I will miss. Being able to just hang out with my girls on a whim... whenever we want. I'm getting all emotional now just thinking about it.

They are my family.

My real family will be out in Cali in no time. Of course I'll miss them for the time being. But my girls won't be moving to the Left coast, they'll be here - I'm going to try to visit them and do trips with them like we do now.

It just sucks.

They are a hugemongaloid part of my life. Man, I'm all teary eyed now.
Deep breaths. Wheewww

Ashly is trying to help me find a job, she even recruited John who just recently relocated to Cali to help me as well. I could use all the help I can get.

I miss Ashly too since she's moved, we chit chat online and such - and we crack eachother up when we're online or in person for that matter. So atleast I have a good friend when I move, but nothing compares to my PEAS - our dynamic is just one that can't be replaced.

Seriously I will be making tons of back and forth trips, along with vacations with my girls.

I also can't wait to begin my life with Luke, to experience new things with someone who is on the same level. Who gets it. We have TONS to learn about each other, but that's ok, that's what makes for a great relationship - keeping things going, you don't want to throw out all your cards at once, you want to learn slowly - keep it new and exciting. I have learned from past mistakes with Al. I won't do those same mistakes again. I will however bring the good parts of what I've learned with me.

I can't wait to see him. Just hug and kiss him. Throw my arms around him and lay on a huge smooch! AHHHHHH! I can't wait. And I know he can't wait either. hehe.

I'm in better spirits - granted this is the week that I chose to "move" Sept 21st came up really fast. I can't believe how fast this month has been.

Before I could blink it's already here. That's the depressing part - knowing that I chose a date, and it's going to pass. I feel like I don't know anything more than I did 2 months ago. So sad and disconcerning. Blah.

Anyways, before I get more down about all this, I'm going to keep it somewhat happy and say good night folks.

xoxo
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